Monday, November 19, 2007
today was awesome. superly awesome. i just wish tasha could join us, but she's lazy, i know her exact reason. farihin decided to go to the xmas tree at the mall and take pictures. of course, my first reaction was EHH TAK MAU LAHHHHH. i agreed to take pictures for her, but for me its a nono. mana mau letak muka dokkkk ! uhm there's one i did upload up there ^ ^we window-ed shopping, walked around the mall. went back to her crib and chill. we decided to prank shahfiq. farihin was laughing all the way while talking to shahfiq saying " hello shahfiq, boleh kenal kenal tk? nie farrah." HAHAHAHAHA. when the exact thing is tt shahfiq already have her number. macam belo, i know ! then shahfiq was like approaching me in msn say " sudah lah korang. stop prank calls" you know what farihin did? she cannot tahan laughing then put the phone in the room and pass it to me&ran go to the living room. haha, kekek siak!
i walk back home alone since farihin doesnt want to send me. alot of things ran through my mind. im sorry, if i wrote this down and it kinda hurt anyone's feelings. im sorry, i need to release everything out.
i just think guys in my life, makes me stressout like crazy. of course every relationship got its quarrels. its not that i cant stand it,but i do have feelings yo. please do spare a thought for me when you said those things. a smth that your friend said in msn did goes into my head,but it doesnt seems to satisfy me enough i swear. we quarreled and you called like there's nothing happening. i prolly knows you love me.
i cant deny it that im more hating myself to loving myself after all this .
of course, ily. your names are all over my diary.
but neh, it dont seems so like it. it doesnt go my way, or your way.
i kept envying people's rs. farihin's expecially.
talk things out and say whatever that each other dislikes.
but i dont think i can talk things out with mine.
he will totally blow off and told me off with bad words.
i only said that he's sarcastic and i dont really semm to like his attitude,
i thought he was gg to understand, but no. he get angry instead.
honestly, i just need someone to understand. and yeah, its almost a week i dint meet my boyf. and i dont think i wna meet him.
idk why, dont ask me. its always me who have to get along with his friends.i dont seem to get use. i mean, im not your "super get along with your friends" girl.i already said this when we decided to patch up. i cant, get use to it. im sorry, let me breathe the freedom, for just like how many days.
boybestfriends.
its just that im losing some of them, one by one.
im tired, im damn beat. i dont wna console anybody.
let me be alone. i just wna be with my girlfriends.
im depending on tmrw , cheer me up, make me laugh,
thats all i ever wanted.
im sorry.
mus: im sorry, i hope we could be like the old times.
aie: you have changed. go and do whatever you want.
haleem: thanks for the advice.
i know this is a pretty long update. but yeah, i just need to relase some things off.
im really sorry, if ive hurt anybody.
my hp's spoilt and i cant contact anyone, but in case the hp work out, then idk.
bye.
