Good news and bad news came like repeatedly, about stepdad.
One time, doctor says he's improving , and thus i was happy. Another time, doctor says there's no hope.
Another time, doctor says there's a way and that is donate blood, family blood. And another fucking time,
doctor says there's no hope AGAIN . Oh god, i know i know.
I have many sins , thus you're taking it away , stepdaddy, whc i just realise i can't live without him.
I have been thinking about it, will life goes on this way if he wasnt here with us.
A house with no laughters, no smiles. No quarrels, whc will always make the house a more alive one.
Ive been trying hard to make mom laughed, she'll laughed abit, but i end up laughing alone,
cause she'll move back to another world and thinks about stepdad.
I havent even apologise stepdad for everything. Idk why my mouth just kept mumb when im in stepdad's icu.
Cause what im thinking was why should i apologise when i know he will come back home and join us like normal? Why ?
Why would i apologise when i know if i started crying and apologising, he'll think differently and he'll know he'll be gone anytime.
I don't understand why. Mommy just called saying she 's working half day cause doctor just called and they say there's no hope, for the umpteen times i think ? Doctor sucks so much.
Im not ready to hear any bad news, or another shocking news. Prayers starts, now.
God, you have taken away my real dad, don't take away this one either, i plead.

Good news and bad news came like repeatedly, about stepdad.
One time, doctor says he's improving , and thus i was happy. Another time, doctor says there's no hope.
Another time, doctor says there's a way and that is donate blood, family blood. And another fucking time,
doctor says there's no hope AGAIN . Oh god, i know i know.
I have many sins , thus you're taking it away , stepdaddy, whc i just realise i can't live without him.
I have been thinking about it, will life goes on this way if he wasnt here with us.
A house with no laughters, no smiles. No quarrels, whc will always make the house a more alive one.
Ive been trying hard to make mom laughed, she'll laughed abit, but i end up laughing alone,
cause she'll move back to another world and thinks about stepdad.
I havent even apologise stepdad for everything. Idk why my mouth just kept mumb when im in stepdad's icu.
Cause what im thinking was why should i apologise when i know he will come back home and join us like normal? Why ?
Why would i apologise when i know if i started crying and apologising, he'll think differently and he'll know he'll be gone anytime.
I don't understand why. Mommy just called saying she 's working half day cause doctor just called and they say there's no hope, for the umpteen times i think ? Doctor sucks so much.
Im not ready to hear any bad news, or another shocking news. Prayers starts, now.
God, you have taken away my real dad, don't take away this one either, i plead.