English lesson was full of gossips and laughters, i love today and yesterday ah please. Aku paling gelap ah please,aku tau.
So yeah, another day spent yesterday with ef. Know him? Alaaaah budak gemok tuuuuu : D Lol. He was damn it early and waited for me under my void, like again. :/ Sorreeeeh. Proceed to causeway and brought movie tickets for dark knight. Farihin asked me to watch that movie, she said fun -.- But one thing's fo sure, the movie was uber looooong, 2 hour plus. Slacked while waiting for the movie to start. I read my ss notes, while ef kepoooooh read too and played his psp too. Went to the cinema at 4pm, and brought popcorns. Yeah,settled down, and i had leg cramps after 1 hour, grrrh, but i kept quiet, haha. I was trying hard to understand the movie. One thing righttt, okay wait, promise not to laugh?
Okay, i have a problem understanding these american-like talking english. Hah! Ef, thats why i was like stressed up when watching that show, lol. Joker dier seram ah okay, ef cakap cute. "-.- And so yeah, the show ended and i asked ef to ceritekan balik the movie, lol sorreeey. Hah, begok sikit. Went to fushan and he was like " Eh jom duduk kat tengah2 circle tu?" Haha dare or what, cause i sat first. Everyone walk past fushan was like looking at us. We watch the guys played soccer, lol. Went up to our normal place when night came. Sat there for 2 hours. At 9, ef and me argues about who sending whose home gaaah. I insist on sending him till interchange, lol, but keras kepala die semacam-macam batu! Heh. But yeah, he won. Macam orang gila tarik tarik kt tengah jalan, lol! Send me home and yeah, bid goodbye.
Ef, you didnt freak me up, no worries ;) And yeaaaaaaaaaaah, nak jumpe maya lagi? Sorrrrrrrry by next week k, nyeahaha. K go! Anything tune in to my privey blog for moreeeee details, lol.
As i say, i wanne update about my love ones, but this one jer dah panjang, so next time ah kkkkkkk. I love nastashalienette,farihinscandalaku,efenddy stargazing partner,deeyangeeyan,azribusok/boncet,nabilahbelohabis&nabeelahsayang. I miss this people ah please. Paiipooh,Mus(the one i know last year, not now),Shahfiqbelo,Farislagibelo lol. Bye.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
To tasha&deeyan. Cheer up for goodness's sake. Coincidencely, you two text me at the same time when im outside just now. Love things can be so so devastating sometimes, yeah i know. Remember this quote? There's up and downs in our life yeah, and yes, we have to face everything eventho how bad it might be. Im so sorry for my late replies just now, as im outside. And yeah, anything you know who to find, i can be there, to listen to you two's heart trobs yup, but what i can do is only to advice and yeaaaah, thinks whats best for ya.
I was too high , for what happened today. Even before what happened, i was too high in class, lol! Malek, ishqal, rozaime, farihin, nabilah and yan, we hear to malek's and ishqal's ghost stories, teka teki and also jokes and plays guitar while singing. These was after tasha went back home. Alien goes school half day. Reason: No mood for school today. Baik alien! Grrrrh. Then, went back home and get ready. 6hours with you,i'll remember it.
And yesz, mom spent more than 1000bucks for my upcoming birthday present. Dooooh, i want clothes ahh, i'll console her ah abeeeeeeh, herh! ^^ Advanced birthday gift or what. This is what mom brought for meh. White jewelery bracelet: 598 bucks. White jewelery necklace: 596 bucks. Zomg, i was like " alaaah ibu, waste money ah. adik nak baju ke ape ke. macam pompan sgt ah pakai nie. " Haha i know, tak bersyukur langsong siak maya! Ok go, i want birthday kiss and hug from friendxzxzxzxzxz. Lol!
Star gazing&counting the stars. Today is so love<3456.> Nabilah's hands , not mine. Gigi aku senget, kau tau?
Again, nabilah's hands.
Ain doesnt wanne take pict cause of her jendolxzxzxzxz.
Gambar merepek i know, but we are too high for a pict.
Aku gelap aku tau.
Izrul. Random pict with him and a random hug he ask for, loooool. First time or what.
I love nabilah. I miss nabilah.
I'll be updating about love ones tmr, tune in tmr aye! :D
Monday, July 28, 2008
School was short and tiring today, cause i slept late. I turn in early as in early at 2am, but i get to know something shocking, receiving a text at 2.21am. Hah, and i slept at around 3 plus. Thank god i didnt wake up late for school. Went up to the hall to assemble, and i hate assembling in the hall, as tasha said cramp macam sardine. Had art meeting for a few minutes, we have another 3 days left to handing up of n level art preps and paint canvas. Im almost there already. My type of person, i'll always do last minute work, idk why, lol. So yeah, i focused on chemistry lesson sioool, tak selalu ah k. :D Had maths test whc i think can draaaaaaaaaaaaag me all day complaining about how hard it is. Farihin was also complaining , but tasha , she rather not talk about it, cause she gave up. Fxcuking hard lah siol. Grrrh, i dont even wanne look at the marks next week.
Had malay test whc is only a pathetic karangan, i expected a malay paper test. =.="! Slack in class, cause our form teacher went to course and no one took care of the class. After school, accompany farihin to have a trim of her hair. Went to northplaza, and she treat me to honey green tea milk tea :D Thanks, next time kau accompany aku , aku belanja kau pulak.
Im thinking of having my hair trimmed or not, and have my bangs back. But mom asked me not to, cause she asked me to keep my hair till long, loooooooooool. She said long hair better, macam perempuan :D lol!
These was the convo they had in the class and it makes me laugh real loud! Apul:Cikgu, nama ape sedap nak letak dalam karangan nie? Mdm norhayati:Qiara sedaaap, ada dier nyer makna. Macam cikgu nyer nama, haryati, ada makna nye, cahaya dalam hidup. Jadi kalau cikgu tk ada dalam hidup kamu, kamu tak akan ada cahaya. *evil laughs. Class: Eeeeee, perasan nyer cikgu! LOL.
Im off, bye!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Hello bloggers, ima at tashababy's crib just to blog . I freaking miss this blogging page. Hah, fuck my desktop manxzxzxz! I want my blogger back. :( So yeah, let's talk about yesterday first. I didnt made any plans to go out anywhere, so i otp with deeyan from 3 till 5.30, and at last agreed to go out. Mom gave me pathetic 3bucks only, for yesterday and i waited for dee. She text me suddenly saying she reached my void deck already, and i was like siolaaaa confirm pe sia?! Hah, meet her up, hugged peh ketat siak nie anak. Macam tanak lepas siol, lol. So yeah, we went to northplaza and we planned to serang rumah tasha, and she brought her a bubble tea. Haha, tasha, cakap thank you kat deeyan, cepat :D lol. Plan aku taaaau, haha. So yeah, went to her house, slacked awhile and me and dee went to causeway and slackeddddd till 9.30. I got to know something and it kinda shocked me? But it didnt scare me tho. Hah. Will be having an outing with some people this wednesday. (: Im sooo looking forward to it. Hah, the others too. :) Cause masing masing ada plan sendiri lah eyh.
So yeah, i went out today too. Met ariff and tasha under my void deck and went to the lib till 4. Ate kfc and slacked till 5 plus, today is dull. Ariff and tasha didnt talk much ah k. Im fucking full now , but i have the cravings for bubble tea , so me and tasha went to northplaza to get out bubble tea. I brought blue coral, i drink it not till 1/4 and i throw tt pathetic drink away, it taste like eiwwwwl ? Lol. Thats all i think. Tasha, aku tau kau high pasal tadi kan. Aku tau aku tau. ^^ Hehhehehehehe.
Pictures up. Randomly, not in order.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Its been days i didnt update. I cant go into blogger, nor do a new livejounal. HAISXZXZXZXZXZ. Hah, cause it says it block my mozilla firefox firewalls, and it doesnt contains any cert ot what. Anyone have any idea on what's going on? Thanks tasha, for giving me sucha a great idea. Thanks, once again. I can't live without blogging. Lawls. So yeah,i miss Fasha smallax to the fucking max. She randomly approached me, ok no she says her thought flies to me, and she had the urge to approach me. Awww, and thanks for listening to my rantings.Kesian, dah lama tak chat, approach jer kene dengar membebelan maya, lol. Thanks anywhoos, you've beena great help. I didnt expect you to side me,really.
So yeah, friday is another not-having-a-motive going to school. And fuccck, i misplaced my english tys at the wrong time. Argh. I'll confirm i get scolding from Mr. Joseph Tan sooner or later. Had our last project in class, yesar baybeh, i dislikes project, all the going up to the infront of the class and reading out loud, macam bodoh. Blablabla, had some kecoh peh benda siol after school between ariff and tasha. Thank god, they have already patch things up. I was like @#^&*(%$$ fucking mad with ariff. Gah, sorraye. I tend to be harsh in words when im mad, grrrh. So yeah, i thought of going to the hospital to visit grandad, but i slept when i got home, just because is at home, im lazy to entertain her. If im playing the comp, its like she'll talk all the way and i have to entertain her. Malas aku nak layan budak kecik.Lawl, no offence. I never had a younger sis. XD So yeah, i slept till mom comes hom around 5pm. Was fucking sleepy:/ Cause i slept at 6.30pm, and i slept allllll the way till 3am, and i woke up and i onlined and onthephone will 5.30am, cool or what? Then i slept till 6.30 and get ready for school. I never have done anything crazy like this. Surprisingly, i didnt feel sleepy at sch. Haha.
So yeah, i dont have anything to update anymore, just that im feeling more better this few days. Mmm, thanks to everyone ah kay <3 Any who thinks they have cheered me up. Update in 12345 days k, bye!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Okay, ive put up the videos, so happy watching our beloness. Seriously all this is for fun, and i know spammers will go wild saying i dont have a nice voice like farihin's, why bother singing, right? Haha. And these two picts was at library just now. Ada orang jealous aku keluar dengan scandal, check check perempuan saaaak, lol! Im gg sleep, its 12 mid already, bye.
stop and stare-one republic. I know, part "thanks for watching the video" is irritating, cause farihin's comp is lagging and im having the merepek mood, so yea.
let me love you-mario.
only hope-mandy moore.
cry-mandy moore.
unwritten-natasha bedingfield.
Just so ykno,this small thing have turned out into a big mess.Wondering why Im still updating about this?Cause Im not satisfied w this piece of shit.Firstly,youre telling me only your bestfriends knew about this?And its like so many people have been asking me about this mess,and obviously I know Im to be blamed,am not running from th facts.I repeat,AM NOT RUNNING AWAY FROM TH FACTS.Alright,you surely have to think through this piece alot,and I mean,deeply.
Think why your boyfriend feels comfortable w me around?
Think why he tell me his problems?
Think why did this happen?
Think why its turning out this complicated?
Think girl,think.
Obviously,I dont wanna drag this any further.This bothers me alot,and I hate th feeling when people are putting all th blame on me.Yes I started it,but Im ending it myself too.Dont think youre not at fault,partly youre to be blamed,cause you made people think low of me.Now,we both have got our facts right,so long. If you think you dont want people to get any closer to your boyf,tie him up and blind fold th people?Hah,whatever to this.Im done, am moving on,dont bother to talk to me or anything.I dont wanna have anything to do with you or your dear friends,thanks aye for everything. It takes two hands to clap.
So yeah, today as tasha said " Kite niari macam tak belajar langsong." And there's not even not even one motive we attend school today. First up was art, i only did sketching, cause teacher ask me to continue painting the next art lesson. Then actually had social studies but we need to go to computer lab to do our school survey merepengxzxz. Then had recess, ate like a pig. I wanted to gain weight and i took brother's advice, to take big mouthfulls, and thats what i did :D Had two free periods of physics, and yeah english, we'll never pay attention. Tasha and me slept like #$%%%. Ok, not me, tasha more likely , cause she slept more longer. What i did was just stare at the walls and think? Hah. So yeah, and home. Will be going to the library and have some revisions. At least more better than thinking about this stupid shite. Argh, waste time la sia. Im gone, bye.
And this is the video me and farihin made ytd. Yes, she can sing, i cant, i know from the beginning,but she ask me to join her so i did. We have loads but youtube is being sucha shite now. Lol, k bye.
GO GO GO publicity it! I alr told you i dont like him anymore, right ? Why are you making sucha big fuss? Make a mooooooore longer post, critisize, everything, talk about what you asked from my bestfriends, friends, close friends. Tell everyone what you interviewed them, wth? Hah. You asked almost everyone and you said no one knows? Lololololol. Baik ! Get everything out, talk about my ugly past and all, yes keluarkan ah semua! Biar puas hati kau! Argh !!!! I never called you a bitch eventho i know you did alot of things. I heard alot about you too. Oh come on. You can interview my friends, why cant i? Lol! Ok, i dint expect you to be this way. I think we're equal. Reminisce your past baby.
You're missing out one point baby. You wont know you wont know. Get a grip spammers, spam more yeah! Obviously i know who you are. Her friends, OBVIOUSLYYYYYYYYYYYY. DOH. It doesnt affect me anything, spam more like more hurting? I already stated out and do whatever she want, yeah macam pig, macam bodoh macam kerbau dicucuk hidung. What for you want from me again? Asked me to confess, yes i did, i didnt lied. What more?
Monday, July 21, 2008
i hafta off soon, so i'll upload the videos me and farihin took. Ok, so wait. I have a great day today. But yeah, tasha didnt come to school cause she had a doctor appointment. I wanne see you tmr baby, haha. Nak pelok cium kau besok. Nyeahahaha. *evil laughs.
First up was, social studies. I sat next to farihin all the way except for maths and mt. Assembly was amazing i can say. Asmaradana, my gamelan's instructor's group came and did a verygerek performance. Okay, i miss gamelan alot. Had bubble tea with farihin after school. K, vanilla milkshake reminds me of shahfiq? Lol,k no offence. He made me like that milkshake, haha. Then went to farihin's crib and we sang and sang like crazy. Lol, met mom up and went back, k bye.
Chia you maya! You can do this. Im more nicer cause i didnt publicity it, unlike you. Jyeah bye BABY. -.- Im getting tired of you. Tasha, baby datang baby balik, hahaha, looooool.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Im sorry, i have to do this.
Sorry "bestfriend.". I rather lose you than having my name bad around peoples.
Im so sorry. :/ I dont wanne lose you for the second time but have to.
Its the best for me, cause ive been called third party by many.
I know you trusted me, and i know you told me about your problems whc you dont really tell to people. But being close to you, i hafta face the consequences of having my name bad.
Tasha, farihin, i'll heed you two's advice. I love mom, you two,bro the best.
Spammers, it did not affect me anything, spam more.
I wont lose anyone or be ashamed by your doings.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Ok, i didnt update for yesterday so im updating&posting pictures for two days. Start thing's first with yesterday. After school, get bubble tea and doughnuts before going home. Cause i dont know why im craving for doughnuts. Then farihin and syafiq and tasha went back to school to have their orals, syafiq i dont know . I had mine ytd already. Sooo yeah had a short talk with ef. Ef, please dont bring my hot wannebe down, cause i love him freaking much ? *shows a pathetic face. HAHAHA, ok no! Since when i had a crush on him (?!) Lol. He's hotter than you lah okay? K shut up maya.
So yeah, to school at around 3.30 and had art remedial, i painted my canvas the whole afternoon. 1/4 and im done with n level art, baby ! Duuuuuh. Tasha came from oral and help me with my painting. :) Thanks sayang, i sayang you banyak ahhhh, you owe i kiss. ;) Lol! Finished at 5.30pm , and met shahfiq and faris at cc around 6.20, i waited loooooong, again-.- Lepek, and went to my house. Mom ask me invite them in, so i cooked something for them and did them drinks, see how nice i am ? Hah! They waited for me to bath and clean myself up and then we get ourselves bubble tea. Went to paii's block to take shahfiq's board and it was very far. Lepek with four of em and went to my block back, lepek again outside lift sia, pathtic or what! -.- Talked till 11pm and yes they two went home.
Ok today's time. Had no lessons, and i had a light bag, thank goodness. But farihin brought my huge art file cause i left at her house, loooooool,went to the bazaar at the canteen, brought root beer floats, chocolate ice cream with oreos, honey-ed flakes and chocolate coated grapes. Random food, i exchange 4 bucks of my money to the coupons and i rgretted. There's not much food, and every stall has the same things, so yeah i just brought random food i never taste before, lol. Tasha got a sunflower from ariff and i gave her a pretty idea, gave smth back to ariff to appreciate him, as tasha was FUCKING happy when she got a flower, nak buat aku jealous ah tu , lol k tak dapat. She brought a cookie whc had ariff's name at the cookie, but the queue waaaas looooooong. Forced her to give that cookie to ariff was like forcing her to eat a roach, i swear. She was embarrased, so was ariff. We managed to make them stand near, but they were facing their backs? Lol! I was laughing, cause all these remind of some kinda primary school love, like a cute couple starting to crush on each other. ^^ But sweet ah they, seriously! K look at the picts below k.
And yes, slept till 2, otp with shahfiq till 3pm, and met tasha at 5pm. Ate banquet, shared fried oyster, i know romantic :D Looool, went to woodlands checkpoint, brought satay cause tasha's mom was craving for it, an went to triple 8 brought birthday cake for mom and met abg under the void. We were having a hard time lighting the candle at the stairs -.-! And we decided to pit a candle only, lol. Came in the house and mom was watching tv alone. And we surprised her.(: Haha she was shocked, lol. Kpicturesexplanseverything k go.
Background kecoh, everyone was cheering and laughing.
I love this shot cause matar aku pretty (:
Eyebags macam sial.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
This doesnt look like me? Looool.
Ok , i wasnt tt fine today, but as usual, my babies, my girls and my bestfriends cheered me up by their jokes.:) Thanks alot hunns. Things made me think alot, yes alot. Should i think about other's feelings or should i care about my feelings more? People will think im selfish. And only cared about myself, dont you think so?
Ive put myself in this position,and im regretting it. I cared alot about other's feelings,but do i care about mine? Surprisingly no. I helped people out, but what do i get? Bad assumes you heed out to me. Investigating me like _________ . I lose out, i lose out to you. I let him leave me as a bestfriend and go as an enemy , cause i wanna stop all this thing. Im tired. But, ive lost smth big, like ive lost one of my bestfriends since i trusted him this __ easily. I told him my problems , and things liddat. And now? Argh.
Argh k plan cancelled. I wanted to go jogging alone, aloooooooone. But mum dint let me, cause 9.30 alrd. Sheeesh, shouldnt played the comp sia, so engrossed to the comp already.
Thanks tasha, ajie and huda for the advices, i appreaciate it alot. <345678910. I know i can always depend on you all.
Its not that the others cant be depended, but all went offline already, terutamanye farihin. (: Ok yes, now school. School was uber boring. Art was gerekxzxz babe, had mengumpat sessions with adilla since she's helping me out in my painting. Since long i didnt talk to her. Thanks to adilla and peisi for helping out yeah. Oral was easy but just because of nervous, i didnt do well argh. I flunk it badly.:( Im out, wanne studyyyy, bye.
PS:Shahfiq cakap maya busuk pasal maya belom mandi since after school. Hah! As if dier tak busok eh eh eh eh? -.- Nak mandi ah k ! Byee.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
//editted.
Imy fucking much:/ You dont send me text messages like you always do. You dont check up on me if im home alrd like you always do. Am i stupid or what? Argh.
Saper cakap buruk pasal aku , mak kau bodoh! Bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh. Jealousy dont bring you nowhere lah eh.
One bestfriend down, baby. Tsk, bye.
Im not even happy one bestfriend's down, but i hafta do this. Im sorryyyyy.:( Private blog udated. Whoever knows the link, go there.
I slept at 4 yesterday and guess what ? I didnt really feel sleepy in class. Its always that way, when my bedtime is early, i tend to sleep in class. When my bedtime is late, as in late, i'll never sleep in class. Start up with SS lessons, write up some things whc i cant be bothered. Then, chem. Teacher reminded me and tasha about chem remedial after school 230. Buuuuut, we were lazy to attend. I rather attend art then chem. Maths of two periods, teacher went mc, when we are suppose to have our test. Thank god, i didnt revise for my test. Cause, errrr i forgot? Good reason, maya! My bestgirls and me bitched about some things. When maths lesson ending, i just realised im tired of talking and ive been talking for the whole 1hour30minutes, oh god. -.-
Ate porridge during recess cause im saving up for mommy's bdae this saturday. Will be celebrating on friday since there's kenduri arwah for my late stepfather this saturday. Maybe i'll just do smth simple like what tasha planned for me, like cook smth for mom? Cooooool. Had geog lessons whc is just so boring, and mt lessons whc i told my bestgirls i WILL CONFIRM sleep, cause fyi, we three are seperated for our mt lessons. Buuut, cikgu haryati freshen me up, she talk about some interesting things. And had assembly whc i didnt even know and didnt even pay attention at hall. Bleahs~ As if i cared? Skipped both art and chem remed cause: My stomach cramps act up again, really. If i tend to be quiet at times and be noisy at times, im trying to bear my stomach cramps when im quiet, thats the reason why i go for a joh, but i didnt today, cause i slept till 8pm and im still sleepy at tt time.
Got up, did apple+celery juice mom and milo for her too, fold clothes, watch tv, did the dishes, clean the kitchen, did homework while replying to tasha and ef. So yeah, and online-ed. Something made my blood boiled, ok boiling point lah nabeh -.-
You promised me , you'll accompany me. But you broke your promise twice, thanks alot. Really, thanks. Dont put the blame on me. Its not that i cant forgive you. I can, but i cant bring myself to it. You wanne make up to it? Argh nevermind. Im so fucking pissed off i scolded everyone who approached me. All because of you, arghhhh !
Monday, July 14, 2008
Okay, its almost 3am now. Tried sleeping at 1 just now, but i seriously cant. Told mom im going eating , but i switched on the comp till now. So yeah, lemme talk about pretty yesterday.
Woke up at 10am, thats like so the first time in how many months i wake up so early, serious. Then met ef at 3, at woodlands mrt. Thought he couldnt recognise me. But i told him to approach me first. First thing i do is not to say hi, i destroyed his hair,nyeaaaaha. Macam geram gitu. We dont know where to go at first, we went up and down at causeway. Theeeen, we went to northplaza brought bubble tea and slack at fushan peh atas. Idk why, bad luck or good? Cause im waiting for my menses to come, aku takot aku mengandung k tak! NONONO, MARUAH SETINGGI LANGIT LAH OK! Then slack ef read novels and did his dialogues-.- Deknie eh, buat lawak ah. HAHAHA. At around 30minutes later, went to tasha's house to ask for ____ and panadol cause i cant stand my cramps.
Went to northplaza , ef brought maggi cup. I thought of buying yoghurt, macam craving gituuuuh, then tak jadi. Went to depan peh northplaza peh block and ef ate. Maya: *suddenly turns to ef. I wanne tell you smth. Ef: K macam suddenly gitu, asal? Maya:If i do smth to you, dont scold me please? Ef: Ah yeeeer, okay. After seconds passed. Ef: Ah k, im curious. Is the thing gonna happen now? Maya: No, relax.
Iika came and i couldnt recognise her. She's fuggin cute, sumpah. I let em settle things and i left em. Lepak sorang, kesian pa? I was having my stomach cramps and i walk slowly. Idk why but i got a headache aft tt. Brought nescafe at cc and tt spray thing. And i sat alone for an hour and went back. Norman say wanne meet me acc me but he slept like a pig -.- When i wanne go back home then he call me, inviting me to his house , he say at least better than slacking alone. I lazy walk back to his block so i go home. My apologies to ef. I didnt know she left you after tt. I was about to meet you after that, showing you th way to go back, but no i aint there, sorry. We'll meet again soon k.
Ard 9.20 went for a jog. Norman doesnt let me go alone and he promised me he acc me tmrw-.- But i wanted to go todaaaay, so go alone. Jogged, 4 round of fushan and err 1 and a half round of neighbourhood. I wanne prct for 2.4 :) Ard 10.30 i reach home and bathed. And yes, cant sleep and online. K byee folks.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
K imma gonna talk about yesterday first thing's first. Went pizzahut with Ajie and mom. I quarreled with them outside pizzahut -.- They wasnted to eat at banquet but i wanted to eat at pizzahut, cause mom promised me since last month, so yeah i won. Walk around cwp, brought spaghetti ingredients and yes home-ed. Got a text message from norman asking where am i, i thought it was the usual "Where are you?" text , but then he ask me to accompany him cause he cant go home as there's a church thingy and there's alot of people inside his house.So yeah, i was thinking hard of an excuse to give mom.
Maya: Im gonna pass usb and homework to norman at cc area, awhile only. Mom: Okay, pass and go home quick. Maya. (I pretend to ask.) Errrr, mom, where's the nearest photocopy machine? Northplaza right? Mom: Ah yes. Maya: Maybe i'll be late. I wanna photocopy this homework for him. Bye ! *wide smiles.
I planned this with ajie, thanks alot for helping me out, lol. Met norman under my void at 8 and he wanted to forge out money from posb but failed. He's an asshole, spent his money on pool games and movies with classmates all, but didnt ate a single thing. Bodoh right norman? Grrrh, went to northplaza , forge out money, brought bubble tea and he brought spag at 7 eleven. We ate under void and yeah talk and talk all the way. He get to know i kinda "lied" cause i didnt followed them to the movies and gave the reason im going to the hospital with mom, haha. Opppps. :x Ard 9.30 we went off. He wouldnt let me off without scoring a goal at my hp game. @$^&$#@. Haha. Sent me home and yeap, bye.
Shahfiq came my house around 11 , and i went down at the playground and slack with shahfiq and ajie till mus came. Around 12 plus, i went upstairs and online till 4 and slept. K bye.
Nevermind,i'll just wish yah the best for life. (: Neh uh,im not that mean to hope that karma comes right back at yah, eventhough i feel like killing you this moment,haha k no. Fyi,i too have the feelings this wont last,weeks ago. But please,dont use "I love azri,he's my friend." as the reason,i sure knows whats your exact reason.
Im ouuuuuuuut, going to work.Yes,tired. But i want moneeeeeeey. Lol, im out.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Picture of the day for yesterday, baby .
K let's talk about yesterday. After school, on the comp, and get ready to meet norman. Norman was being such an ass, for the really first time. He ask me to go first since he got stomachache. He told me me lied to, actually he was fast asleep sia. Hah ! I tried my best not to sleep, i mean, who isnt tired, right ? Duh, met him and went to meet ariff and tasha at library. Studied for awhile. I god mad for awhile because of norman -.- Just because of some things la. And we four went to the banquet at around 6 and ate. Ariff's friend and bro came and join. Went back with tasha and norman cause ariff all need to go somewhere else. So yeah, had a great time cause i laughed alot. They can be jokers, haha. Went lepak with tasha, ate the sweet whc when we ate the powder, gaves a sizzling noise in our tongue, hah. Like small kid siol, and yes i send her at fushan and home-ed and slept.
Today, was quite okay. We still havent got a new physics teacher cause our teacher goes on a reservist. Its like, omg out n level is in 53 days and there's no one teaching me my 2nd weakest subject. Zomg. Had PE, done sit and reach today, i dont like sit and reach cause im weak at it. Mr sanjay yang was so nice to let us off at 10.30, right after sit and reach. Quickly book stall 3 which is always full, but since we're early, i brought nasi briyani. So yeah, had ccd and all. Differenciate mid year results and PSLE: -80%. Differenciate mid years and 2007's results.- +2 That means i get negative 80% low , than what is expected, cool or what ? Hah ! Then went to woodlands checkpoint to get my legging with tasha and home-ed. Im hungry , gonna meet ajie, and fucccck, i miss him macam sial, and meet mom and eat lunch, bye.
Was suppose to be candid, but i know. Lol.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
English lesson was full of gossips and laughters, i love today and yesterday ah please. Aku paling gelap ah please,aku tau.
So yeah, another day spent yesterday with ef. Know him? Alaaaah budak gemok tuuuuu : D Lol. He was damn it early and waited for me under my void, like again. :/ Sorreeeeh. Proceed to causeway and brought movie tickets for dark knight. Farihin asked me to watch that movie, she said fun -.- But one thing's fo sure, the movie was uber looooong, 2 hour plus. Slacked while waiting for the movie to start. I read my ss notes, while ef kepoooooh read too and played his psp too. Went to the cinema at 4pm, and brought popcorns. Yeah,settled down, and i had leg cramps after 1 hour, grrrh, but i kept quiet, haha. I was trying hard to understand the movie. One thing righttt, okay wait, promise not to laugh?
Okay, i have a problem understanding these american-like talking english. Hah! Ef, thats why i was like stressed up when watching that show, lol. Joker dier seram ah okay, ef cakap cute. "-.- And so yeah, the show ended and i asked ef to ceritekan balik the movie, lol sorreeey. Hah, begok sikit. Went to fushan and he was like " Eh jom duduk kat tengah2 circle tu?" Haha dare or what, cause i sat first. Everyone walk past fushan was like looking at us. We watch the guys played soccer, lol. Went up to our normal place when night came. Sat there for 2 hours. At 9, ef and me argues about who sending whose home gaaah. I insist on sending him till interchange, lol, but keras kepala die semacam-macam batu! Heh. But yeah, he won. Macam orang gila tarik tarik kt tengah jalan, lol! Send me home and yeah, bid goodbye.
Ef, you didnt freak me up, no worries ;) And yeaaaaaaaaaaah, nak jumpe maya lagi? Sorrrrrrrry by next week k, nyeahaha. K go! Anything tune in to my privey blog for moreeeee details, lol.
As i say, i wanne update about my love ones, but this one jer dah panjang, so next time ah kkkkkkk. I love nastashalienette,farihinscandalaku,efenddy stargazing partner,deeyangeeyan,azribusok/boncet,nabilahbelohabis&nabeelahsayang. I miss this people ah please. Paiipooh,Mus(the one i know last year, not now),Shahfiqbelo,Farislagibelo lol. Bye.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
To tasha&deeyan. Cheer up for goodness's sake. Coincidencely, you two text me at the same time when im outside just now. Love things can be so so devastating sometimes, yeah i know. Remember this quote? There's up and downs in our life yeah, and yes, we have to face everything eventho how bad it might be. Im so sorry for my late replies just now, as im outside. And yeah, anything you know who to find, i can be there, to listen to you two's heart trobs yup, but what i can do is only to advice and yeaaaah, thinks whats best for ya.
I was too high , for what happened today. Even before what happened, i was too high in class, lol! Malek, ishqal, rozaime, farihin, nabilah and yan, we hear to malek's and ishqal's ghost stories, teka teki and also jokes and plays guitar while singing. These was after tasha went back home. Alien goes school half day. Reason: No mood for school today. Baik alien! Grrrrh. Then, went back home and get ready. 6hours with you,i'll remember it.
And yesz, mom spent more than 1000bucks for my upcoming birthday present. Dooooh, i want clothes ahh, i'll console her ah abeeeeeeh, herh! ^^ Advanced birthday gift or what. This is what mom brought for meh. White jewelery bracelet: 598 bucks. White jewelery necklace: 596 bucks. Zomg, i was like " alaaah ibu, waste money ah. adik nak baju ke ape ke. macam pompan sgt ah pakai nie. " Haha i know, tak bersyukur langsong siak maya! Ok go, i want birthday kiss and hug from friendxzxzxzxzxz. Lol!
Star gazing&counting the stars. Today is so love<3456.> Nabilah's hands , not mine. Gigi aku senget, kau tau?
Again, nabilah's hands.
Ain doesnt wanne take pict cause of her jendolxzxzxzxz.
Gambar merepek i know, but we are too high for a pict.
Aku gelap aku tau.
Izrul. Random pict with him and a random hug he ask for, loooool. First time or what.
I love nabilah. I miss nabilah.
I'll be updating about love ones tmr, tune in tmr aye! :D
Monday, July 28, 2008
School was short and tiring today, cause i slept late. I turn in early as in early at 2am, but i get to know something shocking, receiving a text at 2.21am. Hah, and i slept at around 3 plus. Thank god i didnt wake up late for school. Went up to the hall to assemble, and i hate assembling in the hall, as tasha said cramp macam sardine. Had art meeting for a few minutes, we have another 3 days left to handing up of n level art preps and paint canvas. Im almost there already. My type of person, i'll always do last minute work, idk why, lol. So yeah, i focused on chemistry lesson sioool, tak selalu ah k. :D Had maths test whc i think can draaaaaaaaaaaaag me all day complaining about how hard it is. Farihin was also complaining , but tasha , she rather not talk about it, cause she gave up. Fxcuking hard lah siol. Grrrh, i dont even wanne look at the marks next week.
Had malay test whc is only a pathetic karangan, i expected a malay paper test. =.="! Slack in class, cause our form teacher went to course and no one took care of the class. After school, accompany farihin to have a trim of her hair. Went to northplaza, and she treat me to honey green tea milk tea :D Thanks, next time kau accompany aku , aku belanja kau pulak.
Im thinking of having my hair trimmed or not, and have my bangs back. But mom asked me not to, cause she asked me to keep my hair till long, loooooooooool. She said long hair better, macam perempuan :D lol!
These was the convo they had in the class and it makes me laugh real loud! Apul:Cikgu, nama ape sedap nak letak dalam karangan nie? Mdm norhayati:Qiara sedaaap, ada dier nyer makna. Macam cikgu nyer nama, haryati, ada makna nye, cahaya dalam hidup. Jadi kalau cikgu tk ada dalam hidup kamu, kamu tak akan ada cahaya. *evil laughs. Class: Eeeeee, perasan nyer cikgu! LOL.
Im off, bye!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Hello bloggers, ima at tashababy's crib just to blog . I freaking miss this blogging page. Hah, fuck my desktop manxzxzxz! I want my blogger back. :( So yeah, let's talk about yesterday first. I didnt made any plans to go out anywhere, so i otp with deeyan from 3 till 5.30, and at last agreed to go out. Mom gave me pathetic 3bucks only, for yesterday and i waited for dee. She text me suddenly saying she reached my void deck already, and i was like siolaaaa confirm pe sia?! Hah, meet her up, hugged peh ketat siak nie anak. Macam tanak lepas siol, lol. So yeah, we went to northplaza and we planned to serang rumah tasha, and she brought her a bubble tea. Haha, tasha, cakap thank you kat deeyan, cepat :D lol. Plan aku taaaau, haha. So yeah, went to her house, slacked awhile and me and dee went to causeway and slackeddddd till 9.30. I got to know something and it kinda shocked me? But it didnt scare me tho. Hah. Will be having an outing with some people this wednesday. (: Im sooo looking forward to it. Hah, the others too. :) Cause masing masing ada plan sendiri lah eyh.
So yeah, i went out today too. Met ariff and tasha under my void deck and went to the lib till 4. Ate kfc and slacked till 5 plus, today is dull. Ariff and tasha didnt talk much ah k. Im fucking full now , but i have the cravings for bubble tea , so me and tasha went to northplaza to get out bubble tea. I brought blue coral, i drink it not till 1/4 and i throw tt pathetic drink away, it taste like eiwwwwl ? Lol. Thats all i think. Tasha, aku tau kau high pasal tadi kan. Aku tau aku tau. ^^ Hehhehehehehe.
Pictures up. Randomly, not in order.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Its been days i didnt update. I cant go into blogger, nor do a new livejounal. HAISXZXZXZXZXZ. Hah, cause it says it block my mozilla firefox firewalls, and it doesnt contains any cert ot what. Anyone have any idea on what's going on? Thanks tasha, for giving me sucha a great idea. Thanks, once again. I can't live without blogging. Lawls. So yeah,i miss Fasha smallax to the fucking max. She randomly approached me, ok no she says her thought flies to me, and she had the urge to approach me. Awww, and thanks for listening to my rantings.Kesian, dah lama tak chat, approach jer kene dengar membebelan maya, lol. Thanks anywhoos, you've beena great help. I didnt expect you to side me,really.
So yeah, friday is another not-having-a-motive going to school. And fuccck, i misplaced my english tys at the wrong time. Argh. I'll confirm i get scolding from Mr. Joseph Tan sooner or later. Had our last project in class, yesar baybeh, i dislikes project, all the going up to the infront of the class and reading out loud, macam bodoh. Blablabla, had some kecoh peh benda siol after school between ariff and tasha. Thank god, they have already patch things up. I was like @#^&*(%$$ fucking mad with ariff. Gah, sorraye. I tend to be harsh in words when im mad, grrrh. So yeah, i thought of going to the hospital to visit grandad, but i slept when i got home, just because is at home, im lazy to entertain her. If im playing the comp, its like she'll talk all the way and i have to entertain her. Malas aku nak layan budak kecik.Lawl, no offence. I never had a younger sis. XD So yeah, i slept till mom comes hom around 5pm. Was fucking sleepy:/ Cause i slept at 6.30pm, and i slept allllll the way till 3am, and i woke up and i onlined and onthephone will 5.30am, cool or what? Then i slept till 6.30 and get ready for school. I never have done anything crazy like this. Surprisingly, i didnt feel sleepy at sch. Haha.
So yeah, i dont have anything to update anymore, just that im feeling more better this few days. Mmm, thanks to everyone ah kay <3 Any who thinks they have cheered me up. Update in 12345 days k, bye!
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Okay, ive put up the videos, so happy watching our beloness. Seriously all this is for fun, and i know spammers will go wild saying i dont have a nice voice like farihin's, why bother singing, right? Haha. And these two picts was at library just now. Ada orang jealous aku keluar dengan scandal, check check perempuan saaaak, lol! Im gg sleep, its 12 mid already, bye.
stop and stare-one republic. I know, part "thanks for watching the video" is irritating, cause farihin's comp is lagging and im having the merepek mood, so yea.
let me love you-mario.
only hope-mandy moore.
cry-mandy moore.
unwritten-natasha bedingfield.
Just so ykno,this small thing have turned out into a big mess.Wondering why Im still updating about this?Cause Im not satisfied w this piece of shit.Firstly,youre telling me only your bestfriends knew about this?And its like so many people have been asking me about this mess,and obviously I know Im to be blamed,am not running from th facts.I repeat,AM NOT RUNNING AWAY FROM TH FACTS.Alright,you surely have to think through this piece alot,and I mean,deeply.
Think why your boyfriend feels comfortable w me around?
Think why he tell me his problems?
Think why did this happen?
Think why its turning out this complicated?
Think girl,think.
Obviously,I dont wanna drag this any further.This bothers me alot,and I hate th feeling when people are putting all th blame on me.Yes I started it,but Im ending it myself too.Dont think youre not at fault,partly youre to be blamed,cause you made people think low of me.Now,we both have got our facts right,so long. If you think you dont want people to get any closer to your boyf,tie him up and blind fold th people?Hah,whatever to this.Im done, am moving on,dont bother to talk to me or anything.I dont wanna have anything to do with you or your dear friends,thanks aye for everything. It takes two hands to clap.
So yeah, today as tasha said " Kite niari macam tak belajar langsong." And there's not even not even one motive we attend school today. First up was art, i only did sketching, cause teacher ask me to continue painting the next art lesson. Then actually had social studies but we need to go to computer lab to do our school survey merepengxzxz. Then had recess, ate like a pig. I wanted to gain weight and i took brother's advice, to take big mouthfulls, and thats what i did :D Had two free periods of physics, and yeah english, we'll never pay attention. Tasha and me slept like #$%%%. Ok, not me, tasha more likely , cause she slept more longer. What i did was just stare at the walls and think? Hah. So yeah, and home. Will be going to the library and have some revisions. At least more better than thinking about this stupid shite. Argh, waste time la sia. Im gone, bye.
And this is the video me and farihin made ytd. Yes, she can sing, i cant, i know from the beginning,but she ask me to join her so i did. We have loads but youtube is being sucha shite now. Lol, k bye.
GO GO GO publicity it! I alr told you i dont like him anymore, right ? Why are you making sucha big fuss? Make a mooooooore longer post, critisize, everything, talk about what you asked from my bestfriends, friends, close friends. Tell everyone what you interviewed them, wth? Hah. You asked almost everyone and you said no one knows? Lololololol. Baik ! Get everything out, talk about my ugly past and all, yes keluarkan ah semua! Biar puas hati kau! Argh !!!! I never called you a bitch eventho i know you did alot of things. I heard alot about you too. Oh come on. You can interview my friends, why cant i? Lol! Ok, i dint expect you to be this way. I think we're equal. Reminisce your past baby.
You're missing out one point baby. You wont know you wont know. Get a grip spammers, spam more yeah! Obviously i know who you are. Her friends, OBVIOUSLYYYYYYYYYYYY. DOH. It doesnt affect me anything, spam more like more hurting? I already stated out and do whatever she want, yeah macam pig, macam bodoh macam kerbau dicucuk hidung. What for you want from me again? Asked me to confess, yes i did, i didnt lied. What more?
Monday, July 21, 2008
i hafta off soon, so i'll upload the videos me and farihin took. Ok, so wait. I have a great day today. But yeah, tasha didnt come to school cause she had a doctor appointment. I wanne see you tmr baby, haha. Nak pelok cium kau besok. Nyeahahaha. *evil laughs.
First up was, social studies. I sat next to farihin all the way except for maths and mt. Assembly was amazing i can say. Asmaradana, my gamelan's instructor's group came and did a verygerek performance. Okay, i miss gamelan alot. Had bubble tea with farihin after school. K, vanilla milkshake reminds me of shahfiq? Lol,k no offence. He made me like that milkshake, haha. Then went to farihin's crib and we sang and sang like crazy. Lol, met mom up and went back, k bye.
Chia you maya! You can do this. Im more nicer cause i didnt publicity it, unlike you. Jyeah bye BABY. -.- Im getting tired of you. Tasha, baby datang baby balik, hahaha, looooool.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Im sorry, i have to do this.
Sorry "bestfriend.". I rather lose you than having my name bad around peoples.
Im so sorry. :/ I dont wanne lose you for the second time but have to.
Its the best for me, cause ive been called third party by many.
I know you trusted me, and i know you told me about your problems whc you dont really tell to people. But being close to you, i hafta face the consequences of having my name bad.
Tasha, farihin, i'll heed you two's advice. I love mom, you two,bro the best.
Spammers, it did not affect me anything, spam more.
I wont lose anyone or be ashamed by your doings.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Ok, i didnt update for yesterday so im updating&posting pictures for two days. Start thing's first with yesterday. After school, get bubble tea and doughnuts before going home. Cause i dont know why im craving for doughnuts. Then farihin and syafiq and tasha went back to school to have their orals, syafiq i dont know . I had mine ytd already. Sooo yeah had a short talk with ef. Ef, please dont bring my hot wannebe down, cause i love him freaking much ? *shows a pathetic face. HAHAHA, ok no! Since when i had a crush on him (?!) Lol. He's hotter than you lah okay? K shut up maya.
So yeah, to school at around 3.30 and had art remedial, i painted my canvas the whole afternoon. 1/4 and im done with n level art, baby ! Duuuuuh. Tasha came from oral and help me with my painting. :) Thanks sayang, i sayang you banyak ahhhh, you owe i kiss. ;) Lol! Finished at 5.30pm , and met shahfiq and faris at cc around 6.20, i waited loooooong, again-.- Lepek, and went to my house. Mom ask me invite them in, so i cooked something for them and did them drinks, see how nice i am ? Hah! They waited for me to bath and clean myself up and then we get ourselves bubble tea. Went to paii's block to take shahfiq's board and it was very far. Lepek with four of em and went to my block back, lepek again outside lift sia, pathtic or what! -.- Talked till 11pm and yes they two went home.
Ok today's time. Had no lessons, and i had a light bag, thank goodness. But farihin brought my huge art file cause i left at her house, loooooool,went to the bazaar at the canteen, brought root beer floats, chocolate ice cream with oreos, honey-ed flakes and chocolate coated grapes. Random food, i exchange 4 bucks of my money to the coupons and i rgretted. There's not much food, and every stall has the same things, so yeah i just brought random food i never taste before, lol. Tasha got a sunflower from ariff and i gave her a pretty idea, gave smth back to ariff to appreciate him, as tasha was FUCKING happy when she got a flower, nak buat aku jealous ah tu , lol k tak dapat. She brought a cookie whc had ariff's name at the cookie, but the queue waaaas looooooong. Forced her to give that cookie to ariff was like forcing her to eat a roach, i swear. She was embarrased, so was ariff. We managed to make them stand near, but they were facing their backs? Lol! I was laughing, cause all these remind of some kinda primary school love, like a cute couple starting to crush on each other. ^^ But sweet ah they, seriously! K look at the picts below k.
And yes, slept till 2, otp with shahfiq till 3pm, and met tasha at 5pm. Ate banquet, shared fried oyster, i know romantic :D Looool, went to woodlands checkpoint, brought satay cause tasha's mom was craving for it, an went to triple 8 brought birthday cake for mom and met abg under the void. We were having a hard time lighting the candle at the stairs -.-! And we decided to pit a candle only, lol. Came in the house and mom was watching tv alone. And we surprised her.(: Haha she was shocked, lol. Kpicturesexplanseverything k go.
Background kecoh, everyone was cheering and laughing.
I love this shot cause matar aku pretty (:
Eyebags macam sial.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
This doesnt look like me? Looool.
Ok , i wasnt tt fine today, but as usual, my babies, my girls and my bestfriends cheered me up by their jokes.:) Thanks alot hunns. Things made me think alot, yes alot. Should i think about other's feelings or should i care about my feelings more? People will think im selfish. And only cared about myself, dont you think so?
Ive put myself in this position,and im regretting it. I cared alot about other's feelings,but do i care about mine? Surprisingly no. I helped people out, but what do i get? Bad assumes you heed out to me. Investigating me like _________ . I lose out, i lose out to you. I let him leave me as a bestfriend and go as an enemy , cause i wanna stop all this thing. Im tired. But, ive lost smth big, like ive lost one of my bestfriends since i trusted him this __ easily. I told him my problems , and things liddat. And now? Argh.
Argh k plan cancelled. I wanted to go jogging alone, aloooooooone. But mum dint let me, cause 9.30 alrd. Sheeesh, shouldnt played the comp sia, so engrossed to the comp already.
Thanks tasha, ajie and huda for the advices, i appreaciate it alot. <345678910. I know i can always depend on you all.
Its not that the others cant be depended, but all went offline already, terutamanye farihin. (: Ok yes, now school. School was uber boring. Art was gerekxzxz babe, had mengumpat sessions with adilla since she's helping me out in my painting. Since long i didnt talk to her. Thanks to adilla and peisi for helping out yeah. Oral was easy but just because of nervous, i didnt do well argh. I flunk it badly.:( Im out, wanne studyyyy, bye.
PS:Shahfiq cakap maya busuk pasal maya belom mandi since after school. Hah! As if dier tak busok eh eh eh eh? -.- Nak mandi ah k ! Byee.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
//editted.
Imy fucking much:/ You dont send me text messages like you always do. You dont check up on me if im home alrd like you always do. Am i stupid or what? Argh.
Saper cakap buruk pasal aku , mak kau bodoh! Bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh bodoh. Jealousy dont bring you nowhere lah eh.
One bestfriend down, baby. Tsk, bye.
Im not even happy one bestfriend's down, but i hafta do this. Im sorryyyyy.:( Private blog udated. Whoever knows the link, go there.
I slept at 4 yesterday and guess what ? I didnt really feel sleepy in class. Its always that way, when my bedtime is early, i tend to sleep in class. When my bedtime is late, as in late, i'll never sleep in class. Start up with SS lessons, write up some things whc i cant be bothered. Then, chem. Teacher reminded me and tasha about chem remedial after school 230. Buuuuut, we were lazy to attend. I rather attend art then chem. Maths of two periods, teacher went mc, when we are suppose to have our test. Thank god, i didnt revise for my test. Cause, errrr i forgot? Good reason, maya! My bestgirls and me bitched about some things. When maths lesson ending, i just realised im tired of talking and ive been talking for the whole 1hour30minutes, oh god. -.-
Ate porridge during recess cause im saving up for mommy's bdae this saturday. Will be celebrating on friday since there's kenduri arwah for my late stepfather this saturday. Maybe i'll just do smth simple like what tasha planned for me, like cook smth for mom? Cooooool. Had geog lessons whc is just so boring, and mt lessons whc i told my bestgirls i WILL CONFIRM sleep, cause fyi, we three are seperated for our mt lessons. Buuut, cikgu haryati freshen me up, she talk about some interesting things. And had assembly whc i didnt even know and didnt even pay attention at hall. Bleahs~ As if i cared? Skipped both art and chem remed cause: My stomach cramps act up again, really. If i tend to be quiet at times and be noisy at times, im trying to bear my stomach cramps when im quiet, thats the reason why i go for a joh, but i didnt today, cause i slept till 8pm and im still sleepy at tt time.
Got up, did apple+celery juice mom and milo for her too, fold clothes, watch tv, did the dishes, clean the kitchen, did homework while replying to tasha and ef. So yeah, and online-ed. Something made my blood boiled, ok boiling point lah nabeh -.-
You promised me , you'll accompany me. But you broke your promise twice, thanks alot. Really, thanks. Dont put the blame on me. Its not that i cant forgive you. I can, but i cant bring myself to it. You wanne make up to it? Argh nevermind. Im so fucking pissed off i scolded everyone who approached me. All because of you, arghhhh !
Monday, July 14, 2008
Okay, its almost 3am now. Tried sleeping at 1 just now, but i seriously cant. Told mom im going eating , but i switched on the comp till now. So yeah, lemme talk about pretty yesterday.
Woke up at 10am, thats like so the first time in how many months i wake up so early, serious. Then met ef at 3, at woodlands mrt. Thought he couldnt recognise me. But i told him to approach me first. First thing i do is not to say hi, i destroyed his hair,nyeaaaaha. Macam geram gitu. We dont know where to go at first, we went up and down at causeway. Theeeen, we went to northplaza brought bubble tea and slack at fushan peh atas. Idk why, bad luck or good? Cause im waiting for my menses to come, aku takot aku mengandung k tak! NONONO, MARUAH SETINGGI LANGIT LAH OK! Then slack ef read novels and did his dialogues-.- Deknie eh, buat lawak ah. HAHAHA. At around 30minutes later, went to tasha's house to ask for ____ and panadol cause i cant stand my cramps.
Went to northplaza , ef brought maggi cup. I thought of buying yoghurt, macam craving gituuuuh, then tak jadi. Went to depan peh northplaza peh block and ef ate. Maya: *suddenly turns to ef. I wanne tell you smth. Ef: K macam suddenly gitu, asal? Maya:If i do smth to you, dont scold me please? Ef: Ah yeeeer, okay. After seconds passed. Ef: Ah k, im curious. Is the thing gonna happen now? Maya: No, relax.
Iika came and i couldnt recognise her. She's fuggin cute, sumpah. I let em settle things and i left em. Lepak sorang, kesian pa? I was having my stomach cramps and i walk slowly. Idk why but i got a headache aft tt. Brought nescafe at cc and tt spray thing. And i sat alone for an hour and went back. Norman say wanne meet me acc me but he slept like a pig -.- When i wanne go back home then he call me, inviting me to his house , he say at least better than slacking alone. I lazy walk back to his block so i go home. My apologies to ef. I didnt know she left you after tt. I was about to meet you after that, showing you th way to go back, but no i aint there, sorry. We'll meet again soon k.
Ard 9.20 went for a jog. Norman doesnt let me go alone and he promised me he acc me tmrw-.- But i wanted to go todaaaay, so go alone. Jogged, 4 round of fushan and err 1 and a half round of neighbourhood. I wanne prct for 2.4 :) Ard 10.30 i reach home and bathed. And yes, cant sleep and online. K byee folks.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
K imma gonna talk about yesterday first thing's first. Went pizzahut with Ajie and mom. I quarreled with them outside pizzahut -.- They wasnted to eat at banquet but i wanted to eat at pizzahut, cause mom promised me since last month, so yeah i won. Walk around cwp, brought spaghetti ingredients and yes home-ed. Got a text message from norman asking where am i, i thought it was the usual "Where are you?" text , but then he ask me to accompany him cause he cant go home as there's a church thingy and there's alot of people inside his house.So yeah, i was thinking hard of an excuse to give mom.
Maya: Im gonna pass usb and homework to norman at cc area, awhile only. Mom: Okay, pass and go home quick. Maya. (I pretend to ask.) Errrr, mom, where's the nearest photocopy machine? Northplaza right? Mom: Ah yes. Maya: Maybe i'll be late. I wanna photocopy this homework for him. Bye ! *wide smiles.
I planned this with ajie, thanks alot for helping me out, lol. Met norman under my void at 8 and he wanted to forge out money from posb but failed. He's an asshole, spent his money on pool games and movies with classmates all, but didnt ate a single thing. Bodoh right norman? Grrrh, went to northplaza , forge out money, brought bubble tea and he brought spag at 7 eleven. We ate under void and yeah talk and talk all the way. He get to know i kinda "lied" cause i didnt followed them to the movies and gave the reason im going to the hospital with mom, haha. Opppps. :x Ard 9.30 we went off. He wouldnt let me off without scoring a goal at my hp game. @$^&$#@. Haha. Sent me home and yeap, bye.
Shahfiq came my house around 11 , and i went down at the playground and slack with shahfiq and ajie till mus came. Around 12 plus, i went upstairs and online till 4 and slept. K bye.
Nevermind,i'll just wish yah the best for life. (: Neh uh,im not that mean to hope that karma comes right back at yah, eventhough i feel like killing you this moment,haha k no. Fyi,i too have the feelings this wont last,weeks ago. But please,dont use "I love azri,he's my friend." as the reason,i sure knows whats your exact reason.
Im ouuuuuuuut, going to work.Yes,tired. But i want moneeeeeeey. Lol, im out.
Friday, July 11, 2008
Picture of the day for yesterday, baby .
K let's talk about yesterday. After school, on the comp, and get ready to meet norman. Norman was being such an ass, for the really first time. He ask me to go first since he got stomachache. He told me me lied to, actually he was fast asleep sia. Hah ! I tried my best not to sleep, i mean, who isnt tired, right ? Duh, met him and went to meet ariff and tasha at library. Studied for awhile. I god mad for awhile because of norman -.- Just because of some things la. And we four went to the banquet at around 6 and ate. Ariff's friend and bro came and join. Went back with tasha and norman cause ariff all need to go somewhere else. So yeah, had a great time cause i laughed alot. They can be jokers, haha. Went lepak with tasha, ate the sweet whc when we ate the powder, gaves a sizzling noise in our tongue, hah. Like small kid siol, and yes i send her at fushan and home-ed and slept.
Today, was quite okay. We still havent got a new physics teacher cause our teacher goes on a reservist. Its like, omg out n level is in 53 days and there's no one teaching me my 2nd weakest subject. Zomg. Had PE, done sit and reach today, i dont like sit and reach cause im weak at it. Mr sanjay yang was so nice to let us off at 10.30, right after sit and reach. Quickly book stall 3 which is always full, but since we're early, i brought nasi briyani. So yeah, had ccd and all. Differenciate mid year results and PSLE: -80%. Differenciate mid years and 2007's results.- +2 That means i get negative 80% low , than what is expected, cool or what ? Hah ! Then went to woodlands checkpoint to get my legging with tasha and home-ed. Im hungry , gonna meet ajie, and fucccck, i miss him macam sial, and meet mom and eat lunch, bye.
Was suppose to be candid, but i know. Lol.
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all about me
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Just call me Maya will do. I got eating disorder. My definition of eating disorder is,i cant grow any fatter,cause i eat and i shit all the time. Yes,believe me.
Its difficult to grow,for me. I dont understand the existance of aneroxic. Aneroxic people,you dont look pretty with those sekeletons figures. We eat to live,and we live to eat. Think,it have a different meaning.
Yes,i admit i envy girls than boys,cause i love girls more,k no. Joke -.- Cause i dont really like anything about myself? Yeah,that should explain a little.
I dont understand why relationship happens,when things will end anyway. But i do agree that people goes into a rs,cause of affection,careness towards each other,and such. So yeah,i think this is already too long,but whatever. Thanks for reading up,and have a nice day.