Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Random post whc starts at 4am,i couldnt slept. Told qal i'll be online at 11 but idk if he online anot,cause i slept all the way till just now when i got texts that woke me up.
And now,i realise i will be losing friends soon,very soon. No matter who it is, close friends or friends. Just by having the reasons to be friends with me. Having the motives to be friends with me,for what? Those are fake friends. Dont make me symphatise you just beause of your tears. Fuck it,everyone cries. Even i do. Im living with alot of pretenders all around me,till when this will ends? Life is about listening to others,not just to be very nice and be nice at pretenders whc dont even need my trust. Should have listen to others,who adviced me not to be friends with you back,after what you've done. Yeah i know there's partly my fault too,for taking your ex boyfriend, but yeah. I suffered alot. You'll never know how it feels to be insulted and all. Yes,eventhough you truly say sorry and all, even asking me to promise you wont lose me,as a friend. I trusted you at that point of time. You make up a whole load of bunch of stories,and i trusted it. Thank god ef approached me and explain things from A to Z. If not's for that,i wont be having any clue what's happening and just listen to your made up stories. Macam setoopid,i know. Dont bother texting me tryna explain,im tired. Ive told you im tired,right? Alot of times,i think. So thats the reason why you wont let me approach him,cause you make the story up. Im done with you.
As about bestfriends, its your choice to leave me stranded alone or what,its really up to you. I cant ask people to just stay by my side cause i need them,right? They dont need me, for what stay? Told you i'll do anything to make this friendship alive,even if it were to bring my ego down. Its not that you have ego,its just that you dont wanna lose out,you dont wanna give in. Sorry if i cant be the bestfriend you've long for. Sorry if that what makes you find more new friends,its up to you now. Everything's up to you, decisions in your hands. What i know,get out of school as fast as possible please. And plus,you have not been knowing things that happened to me,cause i know you were mad at me,so i rather keep quiet and face everything myself or with the others,not because i have other friends. Tell us smth heartbreaking and you'll lose us? We;ve understand you for the past 1 year how many months,wont we understand you now if you'll talk about it? As bestfriends,we should. But you intend to keep it to yourself, typing it out on private blog. I admit i have private blog too,but.. Wouldnt it just be easier to let someone read and advice you up? I understand if your girls is not those who can read, we understand , we know where we stand, and we know where our position is, as friends. Im sorry if i misunderstood and you will be asking "Where can you get the proof im updating about you?" But i just have the feelings. Ive been bestfriends with you for long,i know you. Eventhough you said in your post,no one will know whose the real you,i know the real you,i know how you feel,all along. Im more to understanding people now,even if it were to understanding my enemy's situation,cause ive learnt alot. Ive known how you feel to be leftout without dates,i know. Im done with this para.
I understood everything. If people were to ask whc year would be the most meaningful,i would say its this year,cause ive been through alot,alot more than you think.
p/s:no tagboard for the moment,mnl and not much people tags.
