Im sorry,but i cant simply lie to myself and im tired of smiling over a lie after all this while. Im having a hard time to move on without you. "Come on,move on. Just take me as some random guy you've date or just take me like the guys you love and then you moved on so quickly." Saying it is as simple as abc,you're not im my place,you dont know how it feels like. Wherever i go, i kept thinking of you. The moments we had together, the sweet things you did to me. Ive told you, ive never felt that way before. You told me i did make you felt special and im different,but why did you left? Faded feelings. Isnt that unreasonable enough? "I dont care if you wanna call me a jerk or what,but i hafta be truthful." I dont even have the heart to call you a jerk,cause i still am not over you. Be surprise,yes.

Your haters,my friends, ask me to move on, saying i could find someone better,someone more sweet cause i kept telling them you're the sweetest thing that has ever happen to me. They kept insisting,without asking me how much i loved you. They didnt understand. I treasured the one month we've dated,and i promise i'll never forget the times we shared. The moments when your 2 bestfriends are busy with work,and you had no other friends beside them, i was the one who accompanied you,all along. I was so delighted to be by your side,sitting beside you for hours like there's no tomorrow. The late night talks we had till 5, the webcamming sessions we had,laughing and crapping with each other for the whole night. I just realise, the more longer im with you, the lesser we had of them,late night talks and webcamming sessions. You tried telling me you miss those late night talks,you miss talking to me,but i was too busy to even realise all those stuffs.

Till, you told me you had to let me go, you had fade feelings after i told you to be honest about either you still love me like how you do,but yes,thats the truth i had to face. It happens too fast for me,when i think its only the beginning. Remember i told you , you were one step to what i want everything in a guy? Yes,i do mean it,thats why im this hard to move on. Its not that im waiting for you,but i just cant develop feelings for anyone else,for the mean time. Say imma stuck with my past or what,im just being frank here. As im very tired of hiding the truth and playing pretence all this while. Really,im not waiting for you, but it will be a big woah if you still like me or either i can have another chance to know you better,like how we did last month. But nope,i just dont think that will happen. Its a miracle then if that happens but yes,as i know,you're already moving on and liking someone else when you say you dont wanna fall for someone else bfr that. Whatever. Ive been keeping this to my wholeself and finally i have the courage to let it out. Im sure you didnt read my blog,cause you're busy with stuffs whc somehow i dont wanna know. Im done with my blabberings. And yes,to others,this is my blog,and its my say. If you're not satisfied somehow,with what ive written,approached me and talk nicely. Don't be a coward,blogging back about 'a whore is not over a flirt.' or whatever. Done.

This picture was taken today,at my house. Well, pardon our messy hair, we were revising maths while lying down. So yeah,currently fucked up. First,mensus came during science paper and yeah fuck it, adding up with tmrw,3 days didnt fast in total,i wanna do full sia -.-'! Every paper was difficult and i dont know why. When i studies hard yesterday till sahur,bah. K whatever. Im not depending on science. Maths was such a screwed up paper,ive got no comment about it. Maths is always a screwed up subject btw,other than science. So yeah,went to causeway to farihin to accompany her. I was having stomach pain,i swear it hurts and i feel like shouting. Stomach pain as in stomach cramps. I feel like going on a jog to reduce the pain but im plain lazy and i had art to do. K wtv,im done. Im sorry farihin,if i didnt entertained you alot just now,cause i was busy entertaining this pain like shit sia -.-

Bye arseholes.

Labels: where're you now?, You were there when i fall

Im sorry,but i cant simply lie to myself and im tired of smiling over a lie after all this while. Im having a hard time to move on without you. "Come on,move on. Just take me as some random guy you've date or just take me like the guys you love and then you moved on so quickly." Saying it is as simple as abc,you're not im my place,you dont know how it feels like. Wherever i go, i kept thinking of you. The moments we had together, the sweet things you did to me. Ive told you, ive never felt that way before. You told me i did make you felt special and im different,but why did you left? Faded feelings. Isnt that unreasonable enough? "I dont care if you wanna call me a jerk or what,but i hafta be truthful." I dont even have the heart to call you a jerk,cause i still am not over you. Be surprise,yes.

Your haters,my friends, ask me to move on, saying i could find someone better,someone more sweet cause i kept telling them you're the sweetest thing that has ever happen to me. They kept insisting,without asking me how much i loved you. They didnt understand. I treasured the one month we've dated,and i promise i'll never forget the times we shared. The moments when your 2 bestfriends are busy with work,and you had no other friends beside them, i was the one who accompanied you,all along. I was so delighted to be by your side,sitting beside you for hours like there's no tomorrow. The late night talks we had till 5, the webcamming sessions we had,laughing and crapping with each other for the whole night. I just realise, the more longer im with you, the lesser we had of them,late night talks and webcamming sessions. You tried telling me you miss those late night talks,you miss talking to me,but i was too busy to even realise all those stuffs.

Till, you told me you had to let me go, you had fade feelings after i told you to be honest about either you still love me like how you do,but yes,thats the truth i had to face. It happens too fast for me,when i think its only the beginning. Remember i told you , you were one step to what i want everything in a guy? Yes,i do mean it,thats why im this hard to move on. Its not that im waiting for you,but i just cant develop feelings for anyone else,for the mean time. Say imma stuck with my past or what,im just being frank here. As im very tired of hiding the truth and playing pretence all this while. Really,im not waiting for you, but it will be a big woah if you still like me or either i can have another chance to know you better,like how we did last month. But nope,i just dont think that will happen. Its a miracle then if that happens but yes,as i know,you're already moving on and liking someone else when you say you dont wanna fall for someone else bfr that. Whatever. Ive been keeping this to my wholeself and finally i have the courage to let it out. Im sure you didnt read my blog,cause you're busy with stuffs whc somehow i dont wanna know. Im done with my blabberings. And yes,to others,this is my blog,and its my say. If you're not satisfied somehow,with what ive written,approached me and talk nicely. Don't be a coward,blogging back about 'a whore is not over a flirt.' or whatever. Done.

This picture was taken today,at my house. Well, pardon our messy hair, we were revising maths while lying down. So yeah,currently fucked up. First,mensus came during science paper and yeah fuck it, adding up with tmrw,3 days didnt fast in total,i wanna do full sia -.-'! Every paper was difficult and i dont know why. When i studies hard yesterday till sahur,bah. K whatever. Im not depending on science. Maths was such a screwed up paper,ive got no comment about it. Maths is always a screwed up subject btw,other than science. So yeah,went to causeway to farihin to accompany her. I was having stomach pain,i swear it hurts and i feel like shouting. Stomach pain as in stomach cramps. I feel like going on a jog to reduce the pain but im plain lazy and i had art to do. K wtv,im done. Im sorry farihin,if i didnt entertained you alot just now,cause i was busy entertaining this pain like shit sia -.-

Bye arseholes.

Labels: where're you now?, You were there when i fall

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Just call me Maya will do. I got eating disorder. My definition of eating disorder is,i cant grow any fatter,cause i eat and i shit all the time. Yes,believe me. Its difficult to grow,for me. I dont understand the existance of aneroxic. Aneroxic people,you dont look pretty with those sekeletons figures. We eat to live,and we live to eat. Think,it have a different meaning. Yes,i admit i envy girls than boys,cause i love girls more,k no. Joke -.- Cause i dont really like anything about myself? Yeah,that should explain a little. I dont understand why relationship happens,when things will end anyway. But i do agree that people goes into a rs,cause of affection,careness towards each other,and such. So yeah,i think this is already too long,but whatever. Thanks for reading up,and have a nice day.