Fuck mixed feelings.
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Lol,stop approaching me saying my pictures are cool,cs photofunia is. Really,go meddle with www.photofunia.com. Can be entertainment,really. lol.To this certain someone,
So yeap, those confessions of yours yesterday,made me agreeing by saying to myself,yes,im feeling the same too. I got a crush on you too. Be surprised,cause i didnt express alot on my feelings. Cause i know those crush feelings of yours will be gone,soon. Trust me on that. It happens everytime (: Im not gonna keep thinking all this will become possible,cause i know its impossible to happen. Only god knows what im thinking now. Ive promised myself im not gonna have feelings for anyone whom i havent met yet, but i guess i did. Yeah ive met you once or twice,but we havent even spent time with each other. Things started to change slowly. We started to talk differently, and dont ask why i talk in such manner yesterday. I just.. Fine,its fucking impossible. I wasnt joking when i said i did joke. When i say i treated you more than a friend, its more than a bestfriend. You made me smiled alone just by your texts. I d o n t k n o w w h y. I know you did read my blog, no matter how long my post is. And yes,you fucking owe me the song you did sing for me. When will i have it in my comp/psp, idk. Waking up,hearing your voice,cause you did called me to wake me up, starts my day cheerfully. I dont even know why im typing all this. I dont know if you're gonna approach me about what ive typed here. I still remember when you say " You can find someone better,someone sweeter than your ex date,so hold on." Smth like that. And i have to admit i did say to mom,you're the one who made me move on and get over ef. You gave me strength to get over it,well,a bestf of mine, haiqal too. But this one thing, made it impossible for me to think far. I dont want to,but it have always been this way if i have a crush. But im scared all this turns out to be a joke,to you.
And to another you,
i know you have already approached my bestfriend saying you wanted to patch up back and after all, i did say to you im lazy to have a boyfriend,cause i prefer this way. Talking to who i want every night,without having any quarrels after that. But im sorry. I did say the truth out. I liked you two at the same time,because you two have different kinds of behaviour.Ive told you i have divided feelings for you and the person above. Its just that, you had too high hopes for me till i feel like i have to talk to you till this way. I know you're dissapointed because you told me you're scared of rejections and all,but im so sorry. Its just the fact that this mixed feelings,i dont know what to do with it, so i guess, this is the best way. Im sorry again.
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