Sunday, October 12, 2008
I dont understand why,people kept saying i can't understand them but the reason is ive tried hard to understand them and put myself in their place,and feel what they feel. And still,people have been complaining i didnt understand them. What dyou expect more from me? Ive tried my best,to be a bestfriend/close friend and a friend itself. But i just couldnt probably entertain all at the same time,i cant divide my time for aaaaalllll of my friends,right? I realise,i didnt spent time with some of my friends,and im sorry for that. I had like alot saying "I had new friends and i left the old ones." Up yours,its my life. And i know what im doing. I wanna keep my old friends and i wanna widen my group of friends at the same,is that wrong? Ive always advice people but i cant do better myself. Its like,i helped people but in the same time,im drowning myself with my problems.If you think you're not there for me nowadays,then up yours. I need you real bad,but you're not there.Ive been stressing myself up. If "you" who will be reading this,cause i know you checks up on my blog. I just thinks im not ready for any relationship. Since you say its my choice ,im the judge to accept whoever,then this is my answer. If you think waiting will be the best way,then its up to you. I really dont know,how long it will gonna be this way. I just dont feel like having a b o y f r i e n d. Yeap,thats the thing. Since im having conflicts with my own bestfriends,i cant handle everything iat once. Im scared everything will repeat itself. I have no time for my boyfr,and breakup happens. And if i get attached for now, i must stop whatever im doing now like having late night talks with a couple of people till 5 and all.So yeap,can say i rather stay this way.
If you this you're gonna go seperate ways,then its okay. Its not fine with me but yeah,the decision is yours,really. Im out.
