I feel like kissing you when i lean on you.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Im sorry, im tagging along with what we did just now. I dont intend to think beforehand. And now,im scared. You're putting high hopes on me. Started to put pms like "No one to anyone." You're someone to me. Just that,im not sure of my feelings. I dont know how my feelings are. Ive said that in my previous post i think. The times we had yesterday and today, it made me remind about the past,so much. Cause everything's the same,and let me say this. I miss all of it. Just that your maturity grows abit since the past three years. I need more time to think,i dont wanna have any regrets,cause i have mixed feelings. Your heart's fragile,boy. How should i say this? You started assuming stuffs. You assumed what we had just now was flirting when we didnt. I just dont really know how to explain this feelings. Im comfortable with you,yes. And bestfr told me,we should have known and understand each other's feelings since we had more than three break patch throughout the 4 years ive known you. And im not afraid to say,ive known half of you, almost. I know how you'll react to what i said and all. That never changed,a single bit. Yes,i admit you're my first love, and we're totally not over each other yet since the last breakup last year. Just that we moved on and have our own dates, and got heartbroken, having the same situations and yes, get back together like this. Its like,repeating. Thats why im scared,i feared the same thing happen again. But thats not it,mixed feelings i had. :/ Okay fine,i admit the looks and glares or whatever i did, its different. Its not how normal how i stared at someone. The laughters i had with you till my jaws are tired of laughing too much. It really made me remind of the past. I need more time,i need time to ensure who i really like, and whether i wont have any regrets. Im not saying i'll regret if im with you,but yes, idk how im feeling now.Feeqah,cheer up please. Life have to still go on. I told you i'll be your listening ear anytime,right? But seriously, when you told me the stories about him and all, i almost shed a tear. Cause i couldnt believe it. Its like my first time listening to you,your cries. Its fucking sad seeing you this way,swear. Im sorry i couldnt talk alot, cause i was shocked myself hearing the news yesterday. And it made me thinking,till i slept at around 4 plus,eventhough we hang up our phone at 3 plus.
Summary for today.
` Bgr talk at counselling room was okay,but the second part was boring,
so i dose off,cause its about sex =.="
`Played this game,guy's group lose,and kena forfeit. They had to dance. And yes, taufik over reacted dance and slide on the floor,whc made his pants koyak,and everybody lol.
` Rushed, and mus came my house because he say there's no one at his house to iron his baju kurung for him, and yeap, had jalan raya as usual.
` Jalan raya wasnt as fun,cause only 11 attend,and we didnt captured any picture.
Just one,me and fadzlin's pict.
`Afiq wanna meet me up cause he's at republic poly whc is just beside my house.
So yeah, met him up at 9.30pm at northplaza.
` Never did i expected we lepak till 11.30pm (y)! BAIIIIIIIIK.
Told mom the truth,and guess what,she didnt scold me.
` Had guy's talk with mom,and thats the reason why i onlined late. Lol,mom asked me to take someone older than me. Roflols. And thanks mom for listening throughout. I realise i told mom almost everything,about who im contacting with and all,everything!
` Went onlone,and currently chatting with afiq,deeyan and insyirah.
I miss deeyan and we'll meet up soon bby, imy.
`Will be having a visit to ite simei,kental or what k whatever i hope i'll be enjoying myself tmr. And idk if im accompanying afiq to polyclinic,cause i told mom alrd. But we'll see if i have enough time.
Bye jerks.
` Bgr talk at counselling room was okay,but the second part was boring,
so i dose off,cause its about sex =.="
`Played this game,guy's group lose,and kena forfeit. They had to dance. And yes, taufik over reacted dance and slide on the floor,whc made his pants koyak,and everybody lol.
` Rushed, and mus came my house because he say there's no one at his house to iron his baju kurung for him, and yeap, had jalan raya as usual.
` Jalan raya wasnt as fun,cause only 11 attend,and we didnt captured any picture.
Just one,me and fadzlin's pict.
`Afiq wanna meet me up cause he's at republic poly whc is just beside my house.
So yeah, met him up at 9.30pm at northplaza.
` Never did i expected we lepak till 11.30pm (y)! BAIIIIIIIIK.
Told mom the truth,and guess what,she didnt scold me.
` Had guy's talk with mom,and thats the reason why i onlined late. Lol,mom asked me to take someone older than me. Roflols. And thanks mom for listening throughout. I realise i told mom almost everything,about who im contacting with and all,everything!
` Went onlone,and currently chatting with afiq,deeyan and insyirah.
I miss deeyan and we'll meet up soon bby, imy.
`Will be having a visit to ite simei,kental or what k whatever i hope i'll be enjoying myself tmr. And idk if im accompanying afiq to polyclinic,cause i told mom alrd. But we'll see if i have enough time.
Bye jerks.
