Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Tasha choose this pict for me to start off the update with. So yeap, school was fun today. We slack at counsellor's room all the way,there's about 20 people i think. A mixture of academic classes. Not many,cause some choose to go for the study program. Ughh,tell me. Siapa mau gi belajar,siapa mau gi sec 5 siul =.=" Maybe you,not me. Counsellor gerek gile, she realise everyone was not energetic and she made us do watermelon taichi, whc at first i thought was lame,but really, that make me wake up cause i laughed alot. I laugh alot nowadays idk why,eventhough things seems not to be 100percent right. So yes,we had this somekind of weather moodmeter,whc we have to tell eveyone there plus using the mic. Siapa mau gi layan, malu siul. Im nervous when the mic came nearer to my turn,and i already planned what to say. "My weather is sunny today cause yesterday i quarrelled with someone over a small matter,but im happy we're okay already." Lol. Yeap,im happy. But when its my turn,i said smth else-.- a short one. And when counsellor ask tasha why she came for today,tasha answered: Cause i wanna eat the laksa in the canteen,and everybody went LOL-ING at her,including me of course. Im not even over my laughters when 5minutes have passed. Lol. Had recess, tasha had her LAKSA ADD CHICKEN ,and we watched goal till end of school. It's fun really. I wanna attend tmr cause there's a bgr talk lol. Should be fun cause i looooove talks about teenagers.
Walked home, get changed and went to meet my girls. Off we went to town,went to taka and applied for some jobs. Went to "interview" whc wasnt an interview,im lazy to elaborate about this tangs part. Lol,and im so sure we couldnt get any part time jobs at tangs,so yes. Went to lucky plaza i think,and ate nasi ayam penyek whc cost a bomb and it was not worth it,cause the sambal belacan is more to spicy and i cant stand spicy food,i can feel my teary eyes when i ate the nasi ayam =.= Doh, then met ishqal to accompany farihin to survey her guitar at penin. Then went to harbourfront with tasha to actually apply for pizza hut with nabilah,yan and hamzah whc already work there. But nope,manager said they need morning shift workers. How am i gonna work next year if they need us in the morning,think ah,duh=.= Apa lagi,walk around vivo and went to bugis and after round and round of walks,me and tasha bought the same kindaf small bag,so yeap. And guess what, there's already more than 4 strangers whc said i and tasha look alike,lol.
Went to adm,met fuzz and tasha was nervous cause its her first time meeting him-.- Lol, ada orang tu hyper siao text aku. K,fuzz was alright,at least he talked to me without being a stuck up and stay quiet. Text afiq to meet him up,and he ask me to wait at bns cause he dont wanna bring his hp-.- Reached, and waited for like 5 minutes, and yes there he is. Aww, sucha long time we havent had spent time this way together right? Then walk around my neighbourhood,no fushan park of course-.- Fuck fushan park, fuck memories. Thought of buying bubble tea but nevermind,lol. Peh malas sia. Then craaaaaap under this block near to my void for nearly estimated an hour. Talked about 1372837289347 things, lol. Thanks alot,for accompanying me,yes again im thanking you. Sent me home,and yeah goodbye. Thanks afiq,i have alooooooooooot of laughters.
Let me state this,
I felt something different when we had our eye contacts,i d o n t k n o w w h y, r e a l l y. And believe me,my hands were cold and im nervous when i wanna meet you:/ I dont know why too. But i couldnt bring myself to have feelings for anyone. Or maybe i had this teeny bit feelings for you,who knows? Sometimes i wonder, i dont understand guy's feelings. They way they had sudden feelings for me. I didnt even do anyth or say anth that would have the possibility that makes you fall for me. Unless we had late night talks everyday and you begin to miss me and feel there's a need to talk to me,just because you feel like talking to me and hear upon my voice.Rejections? Everybody is,scared of rejections,not only you. I dont wanna lie to my feelings anymore. But i dont even know how my feelings are,yes,fuck it. I dont know who i like or maybe i dont like anyone.
Eyebagxzxzxz.
And fuck it, if this someone dies,i swear i have no regrets. You're the most worthless guy i have ever met. Too late to regret? Yeap,maybe. But who cares, i just want you out of my life,yes. Aku tak kesah pun kalau kau mati,really. K bye.
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Tasha choose this pict for me to start off the update with. So yeap, school was fun today. We slack at counsellor's room all the way,there's about 20 people i think. A mixture of academic classes. Not many,cause some choose to go for the study program. Ughh,tell me. Siapa mau gi belajar,siapa mau gi sec 5 siul =.=" Maybe you,not me. Counsellor gerek gile, she realise everyone was not energetic and she made us do watermelon taichi, whc at first i thought was lame,but really, that make me wake up cause i laughed alot. I laugh alot nowadays idk why,eventhough things seems not to be 100percent right. So yes,we had this somekind of weather moodmeter,whc we have to tell eveyone there plus using the mic. Siapa mau gi layan, malu siul. Im nervous when the mic came nearer to my turn,and i already planned what to say. "My weather is sunny today cause yesterday i quarrelled with someone over a small matter,but im happy we're okay already." Lol. Yeap,im happy. But when its my turn,i said smth else-.- a short one. And when counsellor ask tasha why she came for today,tasha answered: Cause i wanna eat the laksa in the canteen,and everybody went LOL-ING at her,including me of course. Im not even over my laughters when 5minutes have passed. Lol. Had recess, tasha had her LAKSA ADD CHICKEN ,and we watched goal till end of school. It's fun really. I wanna attend tmr cause there's a bgr talk lol. Should be fun cause i looooove talks about teenagers.
Walked home, get changed and went to meet my girls. Off we went to town,went to taka and applied for some jobs. Went to "interview" whc wasnt an interview,im lazy to elaborate about this tangs part. Lol,and im so sure we couldnt get any part time jobs at tangs,so yes. Went to lucky plaza i think,and ate nasi ayam penyek whc cost a bomb and it was not worth it,cause the sambal belacan is more to spicy and i cant stand spicy food,i can feel my teary eyes when i ate the nasi ayam =.= Doh, then met ishqal to accompany farihin to survey her guitar at penin. Then went to harbourfront with tasha to actually apply for pizza hut with nabilah,yan and hamzah whc already work there. But nope,manager said they need morning shift workers. How am i gonna work next year if they need us in the morning,think ah,duh=.= Apa lagi,walk around vivo and went to bugis and after round and round of walks,me and tasha bought the same kindaf small bag,so yeap. And guess what, there's already more than 4 strangers whc said i and tasha look alike,lol.
Went to adm,met fuzz and tasha was nervous cause its her first time meeting him-.- Lol, ada orang tu hyper siao text aku. K,fuzz was alright,at least he talked to me without being a stuck up and stay quiet. Text afiq to meet him up,and he ask me to wait at bns cause he dont wanna bring his hp-.- Reached, and waited for like 5 minutes, and yes there he is. Aww, sucha long time we havent had spent time this way together right? Then walk around my neighbourhood,no fushan park of course-.- Fuck fushan park, fuck memories. Thought of buying bubble tea but nevermind,lol. Peh malas sia. Then craaaaaap under this block near to my void for nearly estimated an hour. Talked about 1372837289347 things, lol. Thanks alot,for accompanying me,yes again im thanking you. Sent me home,and yeah goodbye. Thanks afiq,i have alooooooooooot of laughters.
Let me state this,
I felt something different when we had our eye contacts,i d o n t k n o w w h y, r e a l l y. And believe me,my hands were cold and im nervous when i wanna meet you:/ I dont know why too. But i couldnt bring myself to have feelings for anyone. Or maybe i had this teeny bit feelings for you,who knows? Sometimes i wonder, i dont understand guy's feelings. They way they had sudden feelings for me. I didnt even do anyth or say anth that would have the possibility that makes you fall for me. Unless we had late night talks everyday and you begin to miss me and feel there's a need to talk to me,just because you feel like talking to me and hear upon my voice.Rejections? Everybody is,scared of rejections,not only you. I dont wanna lie to my feelings anymore. But i dont even know how my feelings are,yes,fuck it. I dont know who i like or maybe i dont like anyone.
Eyebagxzxzxz.
And fuck it, if this someone dies,i swear i have no regrets. You're the most worthless guy i have ever met. Too late to regret? Yeap,maybe. But who cares, i just want you out of my life,yes. Aku tak kesah pun kalau kau mati,really. K bye.
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all about me
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Just call me Maya will do. I got eating disorder. My definition of eating disorder is,i cant grow any fatter,cause i eat and i shit all the time. Yes,believe me.
Its difficult to grow,for me. I dont understand the existance of aneroxic. Aneroxic people,you dont look pretty with those sekeletons figures. We eat to live,and we live to eat. Think,it have a different meaning.
Yes,i admit i envy girls than boys,cause i love girls more,k no. Joke -.- Cause i dont really like anything about myself? Yeah,that should explain a little.
I dont understand why relationship happens,when things will end anyway. But i do agree that people goes into a rs,cause of affection,careness towards each other,and such. So yeah,i think this is already too long,but whatever. Thanks for reading up,and have a nice day.
Eyebagxzxzxz.
And fuck it, if this someone dies,i swear i have no regrets. You're the most worthless guy i have ever met. Too late to regret? Yeap,maybe. But who cares, i just want you out of my life,yes. Aku tak kesah pun kalau kau mati,really. K bye.