True one stays,will you stay?
Tuesday, November 4, 2008


The memories we had , will always be kept within me. I'll never forget anything. I'll never forget when i had the courage to wipe your tears when you're crying at fushan,about ___ leaving singapore. I tried hard to cheer you up, i send you back home to make sure you go back home straight,not doing any stupid things to yourself. You know i cared about you,cause i know you intend to do stupid things when you're out of love. Well, i do too, but im changing. I dont wanna put boys first. And i remembered when everytime i send you back home when you're down, i felt like giving you a hug,but i dont have the courage,cause im scared you'll push me away. I know you. I remembered you giving me a whole load of advice saying this guy and this guy and this guy is not meant for me and i deserve a better one. A whole piles of advices from you, whc apparently make me move on and realise. I'll never forget. And i remembered i'll dance while looking at clothes in shopping malls, without having any feelings people are looking. Your jokes, your laughters, your beloness,your everything, makes me what i am now,i love you. Believe me, ive cried for you alot of times, cause i loved you. But nowadays, you dont even showed that you care. Did you know i almost cried at work thinking about you? No. Did you know im stressed up over this matter? No. Did you know i miss you? No. And i believe you didnt felt the same thing as me. Cause i just felt that you dont love me like how you did. Like how we quarreled when we didnt meet for one whole week. Like how we quarreled when you're mad i didnt text you for days. I'll never forget anything. Now,i just realise youve changed, bit by bit. Yes,you'll say you're still the same. But thats what i think of you. Since you got other friends to love, then i dont mind ah. You told once you wanted to find new friends. I didnt object, i let you go. Eventhough i'll know you'll love another friend and gets close to her or whatever. No im not going to blame that person from taking you away from me. Its me,its my fault. Ive said sorry for letting off everything, from a to z, ive keep in me. Im sorry if it hurts you. Im so sorry. I expected a sorry from you at least but no there's none. Its your choice to come back to me as bestfriend. Really. Cause as i said, you've changed.



And to this cutiepiexzxz, thanks alot for the one year and how many months friendship, thanks for being there as always, alwaaaaaaaays. Tnanks for settling everything when we're in a tiff or whatever whc made us stayed this far. Thanks for the friendship. Sometimes i just wish i know you earlier. Thanks for the outings, and thanks for everything that you've taught me. Fashion and all,cause you're always the one who pick my clothes for me. Cause if i ask mom to follow me go shopping when i ask her yo choose for me she'll say "up to you." So i'll rather go shopping with you than mom, haha. The craziness and also beloness ive seen in you for this whole stretch of friendship makes me realise i love you more and more. Im really sorry if you've been keeping your "sakit hatiness" everything and you told me its okay if you keep it. Im really sorry cause i can be such an ass sometimes. So i guess im going to apologise if ever i did wrongs to you. I just want us three 's friendship to last,nothing else. You're the first ever person i camwhored while holding hands with, hahahaha. And the most funniest thing is that, when i went into your house and started to lie down on your sofa, your mom came up from her room and saw me when we dont even know she's at home. LOOOOOOOOOL. Well,i miss your mom though, hahaha. And i miss your hornyness and stuffs. I'll remember everything even if i'll be out of school next year. And i'll hope my bestgirls went into sec 5 okay. I know you can,cause i know you did studied hard,right? And i'll never forget cause you're always there when im down. And im sorry for all the tiffs we had, the misunderstandings, everything. Im just so sorry.
I'll promise and ive promise. I'll do anth to keep this friendship alive.
I love you two,alot. I miss you freaking hell much only god knows how i miss you two.
And you,i miss you alot. Come my house quick.
And a quick one,just that im sorry. I'll just say sorry now, you'll know later why.

I love you two,alot. I miss you freaking hell much only god knows how i miss you two.
And a quick one,just that im sorry. I'll just say sorry now, you'll know later why.
Okay now,a proper update. My shoulder ache now and as usual im tired. I'll say "Penat ah buuuuuuuuu." each time i reach home, EVERYDAY when ive got back from work. And yes, i dont know why, but i think its moodswings. Akmal had his off day today and he didnt attend work, and i didnt even laugh at work today -.-"! Bodoh betol. Sunyi sepi sia. And collegues at work today sucks. I dont know its them or me being sensitive. Its just that they make me .. realise im stupid. Its busy during lunch time just now, and i did alot of mistakes. Cause as usual,i was blurr. Ergh, then i just feel like everyone us scolding me. And, when lunch time is over,i kept thinking about this bestfriend problem, this tiff, and it make me teared. And i excuse myself from the manager to go to the ladies. When i got back, manager asked me why im so quiet today. Ergh. I just shake my head and smiled. I just dont know what's happening. My life, its sooo.. sunyi now. Only two person is contacting me now. Ain and 'someone'. Really. Contact as in phonecall and stuffs. I just wish i can turn back time where we were all happy laughing,i miss bestgirls alot.
And yeah suddenly akmal approached asking a random question that day. Asking why my boyfriend doesnt fetch me from work. Lol, and when i say im single, he didnt believed me. Sampai kene "betul lah bodoh!" Hahahaa, terus sedih sia. So yeap, ive told mus i miss mus and he told me he miss me too. He's gonna fetch me from work tmr. I hope he can make it cause i wanna confide in him about everything thats happening. Confusions and all.Guys who loved and left.
They calls me baby all the time.
They says they loved me bfr putting down the phone.
They promise me things.
But, they left.
Will you be one of them?
Im updating next at private,bye.